2006 was a crazy year. I started the year in a friend's garage, among friends, drinking and drinking, listening to some CDs I made. I was living in a overpriced apartment that I really didn't like. I had just broken up with a girl who I ended up living with later in 2006. I was working, yet constantly broke and not really happy at all.
Throughout the year, I lived under 4 roofs. The apartment, living with a roommate that is clinically insane, living with an on-again off-again girlfriend, and now with two roommates. I learned alot and it has prepared me for 2007. On my own at the apartment I learned that I couldn't afford it in that high-priced place and I am getting too old for apartment living. I hated living so close to people, yet not even getting acknowledged that you are alive. That is just humbling. You can hear these peoeple's most intimate moments through the walls, but you don't even speak outside of a token 'hello' every now and then. With the psycho, I learned that some people are crazy though they are not in a straight jacket and foaming at the mouth. This person had every good intention, totally normal, but lived in a such a made-up world that she was constantly upset because the real world didn't live up to the one in her head. That rage just effected everything she did. I do wonder how her life will be long-term, she has to have a breakdown one day and I don't want to be around when she does.
Living with the ex, taught me that no matter how hard you try, you can't make people act the way you want. I just see her doing things with her kids that I see are wrong. Things she has a chance to do to better herself, but she doesn't. Very frustrating, especially when you can see the kids learning some very bad habits and not being taught life lessons at all. I had to get out of that situation ASAP. That only lasted like 2 months. I tried to make a difference, but was met with resistance from everyone involved.
Now I am living with 2 guys in a house and we have similiar backgrounds, we have a love for sports, we have a like for alcohol and are just 'guys'. We are pretty introverted so not much conflict, but we all fit well personality-wise. For the first time in about 10 months, I actually want to go home. I can actually sit and relax at home now. Living with the psycho and the ex, I was sitting in bars most nights to avoid going home. That just was sucking cash out of my wallet and not exactly healthy either. But now I actually feel secure, feel at home when I am at home. It really allows my mind to think about things I want to do since my homelife is not as stressful as it was last year. I feel like I am where I need to be.
Now, the deal is now that I am somewhat at peace I can seriously see myself not getting along with the friends I have met in the last few years. Alot of them are just 'sit at home and drink beer' friends. I can already see that in 2007 that is not going to be close to being stimulating to me. It already has started. Sitting around, drinking beer after beer just seems boring as hell now. I used to be cool with that, but it just seems to be just a waste of time now. Dayum I sound like a snob now, but that is how I feel right now.
